There are days when the universe taps gently on your shoulder.
And there are others—like Sunday —when it slams open the door, drags in its symbolic luggage, and sets up camp in your psyche.
May 24 marked the beginning of Saturn’s transit through Aries, landing right into my 1st house. For those fluent in astrology, you know what that means: identity. Ego. Presence. For those less familiar—it’s like Saturn pulled out a clipboard, raised an eyebrow, and started evaluating my entire being with a red pen.
Cue: a whole existential mood.
A Morning Without a Map
I woke up with a strange restlessness, the kind that feels like you’ve woken up in someone else’s life by mistake. Nothing seemed to anchor me. I couldn’t find a reason to get out of bed, which is unlike me (mornings are my favorite part of the day). Even the coffee felt confused.
I colored a mandala to ground myself. I listened to light codes and podcasts on spirituality, hoping they’d whisper a direction. I napped and had a dream in which every person from every past chapter of my life came over to my house. They took up space. I had to entertain them all at once. I woke up exhausted, unsure which version of me had hosted the gathering. Have you ever felt that you are too many people in one?
As if the dream was not enough, reality mirrored it perfectly – my inbox was full of questions and expectations. It all felt too much.
I ran a bath to get out of my own head. Made a cup of tea and drank it slowly while listening to the rain. The insight then came: the day was Saturn’s way of reminding me that leadership begins with inner governance.
I sighed and told myself: so this is how it’s going to be for the next three years.
Getting to know Saturn
In astrology, Saturn is the great (and serious!) teacher that wants us to mature and take responsibility in the visiting area of one’s life. Being a Capricorn Sun with an Aries rising, I am not a stranger to Saturn’s lessons (Saturn is actually the ruling planet of Capricorn). However, it’s been almost 30 years since the last time Saturn visited the ascendant area of my birth chart. Here, it speaks about authority, limitations, growing up. I did not expect for the effect to be this rapid on a psychological level. The dream, the restlessness of the day, the general perceived lack of space in my own life… was Saturn’s inventory of my authority and place:
- Adina, are you showing up for yourself as you are doing for others?
- Are you brave enough to prioritise what you want instead of what is expected of you?
- Have you lived in alignment and with integrity?
- Are you applying yourself diligently enough to achieve what you desire?
Needless to say, I did not pass with flying colors. At least not the first two questions.
I tend to accommodate other people’s needs more than I do for my own and take on more responsibilities (Capricorn Sun in the 10th house) than probably should, especially in my professional life. Which leads me fast to exhaustion and also less time to engage in the creative activities that bring me joy (Leo Moon in the 5th house).
The Sacred Restructuring
So there I was with the newly gained insights and an urge to act quickly. My Aries rising, together with my natal Mars in Scorpio in the 8th house have always helped pull up my sleeves fast and start doing the transformational work, no matter how difficult it was. And while I felt the pressure to act right away, I also felt Saturn’s invitation to a more slower, structured pace: “Breathe, Adina, look into your soul and find out what is really bringing you joy, but you are maybe shying away from expressing to the world?”
And there it was! The answer came instantly: talking to people about astrology and how I use it in my life to create better experiences for myself. The knowing was so clear and peaceful that it was hard to ignore. So I decided to start this new series on the blog – Astrology in my world.
I’ve been passionate about astrology from a very young age and I’ve been observing the impacts of the transits in my life for a very long time. I am not a professional astrologer, but I am a practical person who strongly believes that we are influenced by the universe around us and we can live a better life if we understand them.
And since I’ve brought up influences, I also think that the insight about my next chapter was a result of the Gemini New Moon happening close to that same evening, in my 3rd house of communication and writing. 🙂
So here I was with a new found clarity and enthusiasm. Ready to start implementing. But now Saturn whispered again: “Adina, don’t jump anymore with your head first when you get excited about something. Take it slow, plan carefully, think through the steps and the end result, do your research and present yourself with integrity. That will be your source of authority”.
And I took the challenge. I worked 4 days on the current post. I slowed down and became a bit more reserved in my other work related endeavors as well. I’ve worked in small consistent batches rather than one single go. It has helped me gain a better perspective and improve on the go.
This, ultimately, is my opening lesson with Saturn transiting the first house: that maturity doesn’t arrive in a single act of bravery, but in the daily choice to stay present with my own truth. That I can be vulnerable without being weak, aware without becoming rigid, and that authenticity doesn’t always require a stage—just an inner space where I no longer lie to myself.
If Saturn is the teacher, then life becomes the classroom—one where I get to choose whether to copy from the walls of the past or write my own essay, in my own rhythm, with imperfect but honest lines.
And if you too are standing at the edge of a new beginning, ask yourself: what is your truth—and what if… you stopped running from it?
Over the next three years, Saturn will help you acknowledge the fears that hold you back from initiating and speaking your truth. But as with any great teacher, the rewards will come—not for perfection, but for showing up, rising to the task, and doing your homework with care and intention.
